君の知らない物語 / "The Story You Don't Know"

I just want to share this song by Japanese band Supercell, written by Ryo, voice by Nagi... 

君の知らない物語

"The Story You Don't Know"

I can totally relate to the story of this song!... 

I always say... my kind of story... 

sad... but true... reality hurts!

here is the video from youtube that really describes my love life...

Lyrics below... thanks to http://www.animelyrics.com

itsumodoori no aruhi no koto 
kimi wa totsuzen tachiagari itta 
"konya hoshi o mi ni yukou"

On that ordinary day 
You suddenly stood up and said, 
"Let's go stargazing tonight!"

"tamani wa ii koto iunda ne" 
nante minna shite itte waratta 
akarimonai michi o 
bakamitai ni hashaide aruita 
kakaekonda kodoku ya fuan ni 
oshitsubusarenaiyouni

"You get good ideas once in a while, huh?" 
Everyone said and laughed. 
We joked around and walked 
Like fools on that unlit path, 
So we wouldn't be crushed 
By the loneliness and anxiety we held.

makkurana sekai kara miageta 
yozora wa hoshi ga furu youde

Gazing up from the pitch black world 
The night sky seemed like it was raining stars.

itsu kara darou kimi no koto o 
oikakeru watashi ga ita 
douka onegai 
odorokanaide kiiteyo 
watashi no kono omoi o

Since when I wonder, 
Have I been chasing after you? 
Somehow, please, 
Don't be surprised and listen 
to these feelings of mine.

"are ga DENEBU, ARUTAIRU, BEGA" 
kimi wa yubisasu natsu no daisankaku 
oboete sora o miru 
yatto mitsuketa orihimesama 
dakedo doko darou hikoboshisama 
kore ja hitori bocchi

"There's Deneb, Altair, and Vega." 
You pointed out the summer triangle. 
I remember and look at the sky. 
Finally found Orihime-sama, 
But where's Hikoboshi-sama? 
That's a bit lonely.

tanoshigena hitotsu tonari no kimi 
watashi wa nani mo ienakute

Next to you, who was having fun, 
I couldn't say anything.

hontou wa zutto kimi no koto o 
dokoka de wakatte ita 
mitsukattatte 
todoki wa shinai 
damedayo nakanaide 
sou iikikaseta

In truth, I had already 
Realized my feelings for you some time ago. 
I found them, 
but they'll never reach you. 
"It's no use. Don't cry." 
That's what I told myself.

tsuyogaru watashi no okubyoude 
kyoumi ga nai youna furi o shiteta 
dakedo 
mune o sasuitami wa mashiteku 
aa souka sukininarutte 
kou iu koto nan dane

I bluffed in my faint-heartedness, 
Acting like I had no interest. 
However, 
That prickling pain in my chest, growing... 
Mn...that's right.  
Falling in love is like that.

doushitai? ittegoran 
kokoro no koe ga suru 
kimi no tonari ga ii 
shinjitsu wa zankoku da

What do I want to do? Please tell me. 
There was a voice in my heart. 
Being beside you is enough. 
Reality is harsh.

iwanakatta 
ienakatta 
nidoto modorenai

I didn't say it. 
I couldn't say it. 
I'll never get another chance.

ano natsu no hi 
kirameku hoshi 
ima demo omoi daseruyo 
waratta kao mo 
okotta kao mo 
daisuki deshita 
okashii yo ne  
wakatteta no ni 
kimi no shiranai  
watashi dake no himitsu 
yoru o koete 
tooi omoide no kimi ga 
yubi o sasu 
mujaki na koe de

That summer day, 
Those sparkling stars 
Even now I still remember. 
That laughing face, 
And that angry face, 
I really loved them. 
Strange isn't it? 
Even though I knew that... 
You didn't know, 
The secret only I knew. 
That night long-ago 
In a distant memory, 
You pointed, 
And with an innocent voice... 

There are times that I played this song several times a day... I just can't get enough... I am probably a masochist.. HA HA HA... but no I am not... with this song, I am always reminded that Reality is Harsh!!!

I  already accepted the truth... I don't know why but I couldn't tell any friends that I have (close friends / friends) about this... I just felt that I need to handle this feeling or emotions alone... I decided and swear to myself that I will never tell / let him know about these feelings of mine... but still I will probably continue loving him until my heart will feel nothing... I might be able to endure such torment since loving him is my greatest mistake...



Though I am not regretting it... 

better listen to this song again before I go to sleep... 

til next time...

ja ne