To A Place Filled With Beauty, I Disappear...

I guess I'd rather he be happy even if it means I'm not...

Lately, I have been so down, depressed maybe, and lazy to do anything... It took me a while before I get myself to write this blog entry. Kinda frustrating to know that you are bored because you are bored, not doing anything and you feel that there is no point in living "Life".

I love and value my life so much that it hurts me right now when I realized I have thoughts of giving up... this might sound alarming to some, but sometimes I wish I do not exist. There's a line that goes, "be careful what you wish for"... and yes I am quite scared when I had that wish. But then again, how can I not exist? I am already living in what we called the REALITY! 

Maybe it is my imagination helping me to cope up with this little depression of mine, but right now all I could do to fight or shall I say handle my current situation is make myself believe that someday, I would be able to go to a peaceful place... 

A place filled with beauty, 

of flowers so lovely and the fragrance so sweet...

of breeze so gentle, tickling my innermost solitude...

of sky so adorable wish I could fly and touch it...

of  the lavish sunset, wish time would stop then and there to capture its marvel...

of soft green grass where I could sit and enjoy the scene...

of that precious time where pain is unknown, problems unseen...

 of a thought that I am alone yet not lonely...

of feeling the need to smile because of happiness...

of giving out a soft cry of laughter because of freedom...

of savoring simple pleasures this place could give...

an honest bliss, a refuge to take...

After closing my eyes for a while thinking of this scene, I feel better... It actually worked! To all those who feel so down, you might as well try my way... maybe it will work and help you cope up...

But yeah sometimes, you just need somebody to talk to... I just don't feel to talk to anybody yet... not now... 

till next time...

ja ne...